the desire to be famous


me as an 8 year old in san diego/la jolla california where i was born and lived till age 9)

i love this madonna song about trading fame for love. i have this disease of wanting to be famous and thinking if only i was famous then i would feel loved and appreciated and connected and seen. VALID. POWERFUL. i remember seeing shirley temple in movies as a little girl in san diego and wanting to be her! i wanted to be loved and appreciated and paid attention to and watched like shirley temple was. to be taken seriously and thought of as important- and also i wanted to be free of being so shy!

drowned world/substitute for love
by madonna (from the album ray of light)

I traded fame for love
Without a second thought
It all became a silly game
Some things cannot be bought

I got exactly what I asked for
Wanted it so badly
Running, rushing back for more
I suffered fools
So gladly

And now I find
I've changed my mind

The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love

I traveled round the world
Looking for a home
I found myself in crowded rooms
Feeling so alone

I had so many lovers
Who settled for the thrill
Of basking in my spotlight
I never felt
So happy

The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Oh oh oh ohh

Famous faces, far off places
Trinkets I can buy
No handsome stranger, heady danger
Drug that I can try
No ferris wheel, no heart to steal
No laughter in the dark
No one night stand, no far off land
No fire that I can spark
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Should I wait for you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love

Now I find I've changed my mind

This is my religion
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i doubt my desire to be famous will ever go away- but i do hope i can find loving relationships with human beings in my personal life and keep on expressing myself in the public way that i do. i will always want to communicate outward into the world through the media.

but sometimes it's not satisfying to my heart and feels like i am trying to squeeze blood out of a stone...

me with my dads guitar as a little kid in anaheim california.
more kid pics of me here:
http://www.shannonkringen.com/kidshannon.htm

may i learn to achieve more success in my career as multi media aRtist and model AND may i learn to love more in my personal life. may i be more careful with my boundaries and who i choose to open up to. say yes and no carefully shannon! i am so shy in some ways and so bold in other ways. so open yet so closed.

i am happy i will be meeting these lovely aRtist/bodypainting people in lupin california this summer when i attend the naturist gathering near the santa cruz mountains...i'll be staying in my own yurt!
http://www.livingbrush.com/
http://www.foxymoxy.com/
http://www.myspace.com/foxymoxy_livingbrush
http://www.scottfray.com/

keep learning, shannon

i think one of the ways to heal from depression is to let yourself FEEL SAD and angry and dark and all the feelings you are told you "should" not feel or express. feel them all and express them all out!!!!!!!!!!

ironically/paradoxically the more i let myself feel dark and sad and angry the lighter i seem to become overall...happier when i allow my sadness to be.

it's natural to be sad sometimes and feel upset and angry. life is full of the full spectrum. i don't wanna deny or supress any of my emotions. i want them all to sit at the table and have tea. (as tori amos likes to say...i agree....make peace with all your sides inside)

instead of fighting your feelings and trying to get rid of them why not just be with them fully and indulge in all of them. cry, feel sad, walk through the fire and see whats beyond it.

i wanna get beyond the duality of happy/sad and be all of it. whole. not hole. but holy whole!!!!!!!!

i love the movie called "the astronaut farmer" with billy bob thornton. very dreamy/touching/inspiring about the power of your dreams and the need to pursue them no matter what the end result. do what you LoVe. give it your best. well acted, beautifully filmed.

i had a nice time driving out to the country with a friend and visiting my old high school and seeing the mural my high school art teacher asked me to paint in my "abstract style" is still there after 21 years! it's crumbling chipped paint now but still there in a ghost like way...

been hanging out with different friends lately...and painting some shoes...and got a 12x18 enlargement of this photo i took in florida...i will frame it. my first BIG print! only $2.99 at costco!

i went to the grief and loss spiritually based support group 2day. very powerful. a male friend came with me and he got support too. nice. i am grateful for a lot right now despite whatever stress i have...
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2 new ViDeOs!

f e r t i l e E Y E S
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7shjaYh_oFY




drumming out...i changed the desiGn of this:
http://myspace.com/shannonkringen


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wlpBkIeiWqI

this july i am going here to california for a naturist gathering in the woods near santa cruz~
http://www.lupinlodge.org/
i will be staying in my own yurt! thanks for my magical travel faerie friend...
http://www.shannonkringen.com/naturistgathering.htm
june 9th i will be in the world naked bike ride in seattle with my style of bodypaint on.
june 23 and 24th i will be in the suMMer solstice PaRaDe and body pride parades in seattle.
http://www.shannonkringen.com/bodypainting.htm

vote for my photos if you want! i could win $100.00!


"jungle kring" to Breakthrough
http://jpgmag.com/photos/87116
so far= This photo has 137 Views and 4 Yeahs.


"rough pavement" to Entropy
http://jpgmag.com/photos/87129
so far= This photo has 90 Views and 9 Yeahs.

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hello everyone, (i love this video= http://www.vimeo.com/clip:156783)

the gallery opening is saturday night 7-10pm april 7th in seattle! i am showing my framed photo below and selling it! i have greeting cards, fridge magnets and samples of hand painted kringwear that i make also!


Scare Of Fiercity photo for sale! $120.00 plus shipping!


samples of my KringWEAR now on display in seattle at http://www.antgallery.org i do custom orders! give me something to paint and i will transform it for you! more samples here: http://www.shannonkringen.com/kringwear.htm


i found this graffitti today comforting. i suddenly like the color white.


greeting cards by me for sale $5.00 each!


if you wanna buy aRt from me i take paypal or check/money orders!
shannon kringen
P O BOX 20610
seattle, wa 98102

kringgoddess at yahoo
http://www.shannonkringen.com/kringstore.htm

come to the opening if you live near seattle, wa usa!

Directions to aRt not terminal gallery=

MAP HERE=
http://www.antgallery.org/about_ARTNOT/ant_MAP.gif

The http://www.antgallery.org is located on a retail level corner, at the three street intersection of Westlake, Lenora and 8th in Seattle. Our sign is easy to spot. We are just a convenient few blocks from the Westlake Mall at 2045 Westlake. We are open 7 days a week: Monday - Saturday 11 AM - 6 PM , or enjoy free downtown parking Sunday 12 - 5 PM. For information, please call 206. 233-0680 during business hours or leave a message.

If you are Southbound on the I-5 freeway, take the Stewart Street Exit. Go five blocks until you arrive at 8th Avenue. Turn right and travel two blocks. You are now at the intersection of 8th, Westlake and Lenora. The Gallery is across the street on the corner.

If you are Northbound on the I-5 freeway, take the Seneca Street exit. Turn right at the first light. Continue down 6th Avenue for about seven blocks until you see the McDonald's. Turn right on Westlake. The Gallery is at the second stoplight where Westlake, 8th and Lenora intersect, on the left corner.


In addition, the #17 Metro bus stops at Westlake and Lenora.

to see all my current fun stuff go here:
http://shannonkringen.livejournal.com/

9:57 PM - OceanPICS and webcast by GoddessKRING monday night! Category: Art and Photography
i just made this new lovely page of my ocean photos while camping last month...along the washington coast...to a place called rialto beach!
i hope you enJOY...i LoVe the ocean so much...
http://www.shannonkringen.com/ocean_by_kring.htm
i also wanna remind you all that my webcast "GoddessKRING" is on monday nights at 1030pm pacific usa time from http://www.scantv.org
also on seattle tv chan. 29/77 same time!
peaCe to all, shannonhttp://www.myspace.com/shannonkringenhttp://www.livejournal.com/users/shannonkringenhttp://www.youtube.com/user/shannonkringen

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=814_mdH8SYg
me doing a monologue in face paint and then clips i shot at the ocean= rialto beach washington coast...

THIS WOMAN THAT WAS HIT BY A CAR WHILE ON HER SKATEBOARD IN EUGENE OREGON HAS MADE SOME PROGRESS=
http://www.bringkimback.com/
HELP IF YOU WANT OR PRAY OR SEND GOOD WISHES OF HEALING. THANKS.

wow i have not posted here in one year! i post here everyday!
http://www.livejournal.com/users/shannonkringen